the bond

assalamualaikum and hello.

I really really miss my sister. She is the only younger sister I have. We share story, we fight, we eat, we scream, we make jokes. Lot of stuff we did together. But now shes gone. pursue her studies. For the first time I knew that she gonna further her studies far away from hometown I cried. You know the feeling when someone who always be with us suddenly ‘disappeared’. it’s a shame when I cried just becoz of this. Some people might say ‘she only pursue her studies. Not ran away from home’ yah its really true but I even didn’t realize my tears would burst out when hearing bout the news.

Shes 17 now. But yet she still looks like a girl from standard six. She is very childish. Not like the other girl who had same age with her. Shes really innocent and not matured at all. But that’s make her more special.  Everyone got worried when shes gonna leave home and live in another place which is 100miles away from home. But whether we like it or not she still going. Its not like we want to ‘keep’ her forever. Like my parent said ‘let her know the world’ yah my parent said that. But I know they only said to ease their feeling. Deep in their heart they still worried.

She has the same habit with me. Shes not only my sister but more likely as my best friend. We always imagine something funny and end up laughing crazily. And if we found or see something ‘weird’, we will touch each other and make eye contact. Hahaa that was our secret signal. No one knows bout this signal. I can tell her anything. We shared lot of stories. Even sometimes she acts as my diary. I can tell her bout my problems. And so do her. We keep telling each other stories that cannot be shared with other people.

It’s about 2 months since she leave home. I feel lonely. If im sad no one will hear my problem. I cannot complain to anyone. No one accompany me sleep. I cant tell story anymore. Every night we will call her. Asking bout her studies, what she eats. Common questions. Sometimes she ask me childish question like ‘do I need to read this? Do I need to give it to them? Do I need to write it?’ its like she still cannot make her own decision. Sometimes I feel worry bout her. She is tooo kind. I don’t want someone take advantage on her kindness. I hope she will get good friends. And I always pray for her health and studies.

Do come back quickly. I miss you :’)

Yours truly sister.

 p/s: please ignore my bad English. My English suck.

(biasa lah anak melayu makan sambal belacan dan budu!)

BTW HAPPY RAMADAN.

Okbye.